Hey everyone,

So I'm officially sad.. my mood has gotten worse.. there are reasons why, and some I won't go into because this is not the place to air my "dirty laundry" but some of it I will...

The one person.. well, guy... that I trust the most with everything.. and I tell him everything, and he tells me everything... is going away for a while... I knoe it seems odd that I would attach myself to someone over the internet, because that is so not like me, but when I started talking to Dave, I knew there was something about him that I really liked.. he was open and honest with me, and that is one of the qualities I look for in a friend. But anyways, Dave had to go away for a while, and I wno't be able to talk to him... it just hurts in my heart that I may loose him, if that even makes sense.. but i plan on leaving him a lot of messages to let him know I still think about him.

My Dad is sick again.. not like throwing up sick, but he's having personality problems again.. it's from his brain tumor, but it's become somewhat unbearable.. I love my Dad so much, but there are days that I just want to hit him.... does that make me a bad person? I hope not.. there's just so much walking on eggshells going on in the house that I don't know what to do.. I just hope his medication kicks back in and he becomes somewhat subdued... He has been great for about 6 months or so, but all of a sudden he's become irritable, so I just keep to myself. If you want to say anything to me, don't forget to sign the guestbook.. I could usse support now.

Now for things with me.. My summer class starts in about a month, so I'll be really busy with that... I have to be in class on my birthday, so that sucks.. from 8-1 straight. I just want the semester to be done, and for the next 2 semesters to go by fast so I'll be able to transfer out of NCC. I just want to move on with my life and do something that I love.

Love Always,

Ashley

love || forever