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» I'm Ashley. I'm 19 and I live in Bethlehem, PA. I am in college, going into nursing. I am single... *wink wink* lol
»loves: to be in love, cats, sheep, my family, my friends, babies and almost everything pink.. oh and I LOVE things medical.
»hates: Liars, cheaters, people who think they are better than you.. clowns, sharks, biggots and racists.
why do I hate my ex?
1:35 p.m. || 2004-04-06
Hey everyone...
So I'm in a mood today.. I'm just a little low and sad and I don't even know why.. it has to do with eddie I think.. Why can't I let him go? He doen't talk to me for months and all of a sudden he wants to be apart of my life again.. sure, 3 years is such a long time to be with someone... and I will always have feelings for him, but it's a different kind of love for me.. I love him like he's a member of my family.. not like in a romance-love way anymore. It makes me so upset... one minute he's saying he loves me and wants what we had, and the next he's telling me about these girls he's sleeping with.. I just don't get it... and it's hurting me so badly... and he wonders why I don't talk to him anymore..
He IMed me today on AOL and tells me that he loves me.. and that he always has and always will ad he can't let things go, which is flattering in a way, but the minute I have my life picked up and ready to go he's back in it trying to stir everything up... I just... I don't understand why I can't just shut him out? Why is it that I feel like everytime I talk to him, I either feel like a part of me is just slowly being tortured.. he tells me he loves me.. and then he says to me "I'm sleeping with 5 girls, but I do love you". How can he love me and do those things? *sighs* I get involved with all the wrong men... yes, i'm only 18, but I always thought he was the one, you know? I am heartbroken...
Ashley