Hey Everyone!

I hope all of you are doing better than I am.. I have had a hell of a week.. and hell doesn't seem to describe it enough.... but more of that later!

So, the tip of the iceberg of me being so devastated.. actually, more like really upset, was 3 of my friends fighing online, leading me to say some pretty nasty things about one of them.. I don't want to name names, nor do I want to point fingers at anyone, but I'm pretty much upset.. and I'm trying to figure out where all the pieces of the puzzle go, so to speak.. oh wel.. I guess if things were meant to be, then they will sort themselves out...

classes are getting to the best of me.. It's so nice outside and I'm stuck in a building that has NO WINDOWS to the outside world.. it's so depressing! lol... I just want to be set loose in a field where I can run free and do my own thing.. but there's less than 7 weeks of the semester left, so I just need to buckle down and work on things for school. Like studying for finals.. shoot me! lol.

I talked to Eddie for like 4 hours 2 days ago.. we always laugh whenever we talk.. like I've always said, no matter how painful what we went through together was/is, I'll always love him.. he's one of my best friends.. so anyways, we were talking about a girl from one of his classes that he's madly in love with, but she doesn't know he exists... but out of no where, he goes, "Ashley... you know what the 2 of us are like? Elaine and Jerry from Seinfeld... didn't we have a fling once?" which made me crack up with laughter.. I wish you all could meet him.. he's such a loving and caring guy.. I love him so much.. but not in the romantic sense of the word.. but more like he's my family now.

Oh boy guys! It's only a few months until my 19th birthday! I'm too excited! lol. I have no idea what I am doing yet.. but if you are going to get me something, please don't make it anything to do with clowns, or I'll really freak out!!! Remember Lauren.. I'm getting you a clown stripper for your 21st birthday! LOL...

I'm so jealous.. my friend Dave is going on vacation this week from his job.. he's driving all over the place... what I wouldn't do to have 1 week alone, in a car, just driving around with no destination in mind? Is anyone snsing that I want a road trip? *smiles* I'd love to just drive cross country, stopping at random places.. just as long as the destination isn't in the south... I've seen too many movies.. Texas Chainsaw Massacre, Wrong Turn.. those are just examples.. HOUSE OF 1000 CORPSES!! That's reason enough to not want to go on a road trip, but I want to.. lol. anyone interested? lol. Leave a message in the guestbook!

Love you all!

Ashley

XOXO

love || forever