Hey guys! Happy Valentines day early!

Even though I'll be spending it alone probably.. it's all good! I'm happy with my life and where it's going!

So, this is from one of my favorite movies.. Immortal Beloved. It's all about Ludwig van Beethoven.. and it's a letter he wrote to the woman he loved.. who was carrying his child, and he didn't know about it. She loved him all of her life, but she thought he didn't love her.. so she married his older brother. He (Beethoven) was supposed to meet her at a hotel so they could go away and get married, but he was late, and she left. And this was a letter supposed to be given to her, but it wasn't... not until after he died did she get it. This movie is so touching.. so I just had to put the letter on here...

"My angel, my all, my very self -

Only a few words today and at that with pencil (with yours) - Not till tomorrow will my lodgings be definitely determined upon - what a useless waste of time -

Why this deep sorrow when necessity speaks - can our love endure except through sacrifices, through not demanding everything from one another; can you change the fact that you are not wholly mine, I not wholly thine -

Oh God, look out into the beauties of nature and comfort your heart with that which must be -

Love demands everything and that very justly - thus it is to me with you, and to you with me.

But you forget so easily that I must live for me and for you; if we were wholly united you would feel the pain of it as little as I -

My journey was a fearful one; I did not reach here until 4 o'clock yesterday morning. Lacking horses the post-coach chose another route, but what an awful one; at the stage before the last I was warned not to travel at night; I was made fearful of a forest, but that only made me the more eager - and I was wrong.

The coach must needs break down on the wretched road, a bottomless mud road.

Without such postilions as I had with me I should have remained stuck in the road.

Esterhazy, traveling the usual road here, had the same fate with eight horses that I had with four - Yet I got some pleasure out of it, as I always do when I successfully overcome difficulties -

Now a quick change to things internal from things external.

We shall surely see each other soon; moreover, today I cannot share with you the thoughts I have had during these last few days touching my own life -

If our hearts were always close together, I would have none of these.

My heart is full of so many things to say to you - ah - there are moments when I feel that speech amounts to nothing at all -

Cheer up - remain my true, my only treasure, my all as I am yours.

The gods must send us the rest, what for us must and shall be - "

Love Always,

Ashley

P.S. Just thought I'd say 'Hi Tiff!!! I haven't heard from you in a while! Let me know how you are!'

love || forever