Hey everyone! OMG! I talked to Nick.. lol... here's part of our conversation!

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Nick: hey

Nick: sorry about that

ashley: hey

ashley: it's okay

nick: so how is school going for you?

ashley: yesterday was the last day thank God.. lol

nick: so do you have finals?

ashley: on Wednesday and Thursday I do.. and then I'm done

nick: that's nice

ashley: what's been going on with you? It feels like I haven't spoken to you in years.. lol

nick: i know!

nick: i guess i've been really sick

nick: i hate doctors though....no offense!

ashley: what was wrong with you?

nick: i'm not entirely sure i understand

nick: but it was something like the flu AND pneumonia

ashley: oh no!! that's awful!

nick: i'm better now

nick: just really tired

nick: from sleeping all day for so long

nick: my body hurts when i get up and move around

ashley: poor thing.....

nick: so yeah

nick: i'm done with my school stuff

nick: but

nick: i'd still like to come down to visit you even though i don't need to for school

ashley: I'd like to see you too.. I've really missed you

nick: i'm not sure what the deal is going to be for the next semester

nick: but my parents are convinced i should take it here at binghamton

nick: which sucks even more

nick: since i really have no friends here they all went away to school

ashley: well, whatever you decide to do, I'll always be here for you...

nick: for once i was looking forward to being at school because i had a friend, you know?

nick: arg

nick: well

nick: i'm not sure how it is going to work out

nick: either way

nick: i'd still like to come visit

ashley: what have you decided? maybe it would be better if you stayed there for the semester

nick: well i haven't decided anything

nick: my parents have been trying to make decisions for me

nick: and i have to decide whether to fight them or not

nick: which means i have to decide if they are right

nick: which they probably are

nick: it's tough

ashley: maybe it would be a good thing for you to be up there with a support system to get you through the semester...

Nick: and my mother to nag me to get my work done

nick: so i don't procrastinate

nick: the sad fact remains

nick: that when i left home 2 and a half years ago to go to school

nick: i really wasn't ready for that yet

nick: maybe i still am not

ashley: maybe this is all happening for a reason...

nick: i'm not entirely sure i'm ready to trust my judgment yet

nick: i mean

nick: i'm on drugs

nick: and i'm tired

nick: hopefully my mind will clear soon

nick: and i can actually make sense of this

ashley: like I said before.. I'll be here no matter what you decide

nick: i know you will:-)

nick: you were so good to me

ashley: because I don't want to lose you! lol

nick: you are really the only reason i am holding out

nick: on agreeing with them

nick: the problem is i have a history

nick: in making the wrong decisions

nick: based on wanting to be with a girl

nick: and they know that

ashley: I don't want you to decide on anything... I think that maybe you staying up there would be good..

nick: but we wouldn't get to see eachother nearly as often

nick: not that i wouldn't come visit alot

nick: it's only a little more than 2 hours

nick: but

nick: it still wouldn't be nearly like it was

ashley: don't decide on anything based on me.. you know? Well, I'd be happy if I only got to see you for 5 minutes.. I'd be so happy because of that

nick: are you sure?

nick: are you sure that if you only saw me 3 or 4 times in a month

nick: you'd be okay with that?

ashley: I'm dead serious.... I would be happy with anything you could do...

nick: okay well

nick: i still don't want to rush in to anything

nick: but

nick: it really helps

nick: to know that you'd support me on this

nick: i was worried

nick: i didn't want to let you down or disappoint you

ashley: you wouldn't have... no matter what...

nick: over the past few weeks i've been constantly having to deal with my ex-girlfriends and their bullshit

nick: and my friends sisters and their bullshit, and everyone i've ever dated or who wanted to date me

Nick: and all of their false sympathy...

Nick: but you

Nick: were so good to me, and yet so

Nick: honest

Nick: you weren't a bullshitter like everyone else i've ever known

ashley: things here have been so hectic... and I'm sorry if I went psycho.. lol

nick: no

nick: i mean...

nick: i kept wanting them to let me email you, but my mom is crazy

nick: thought i would die walking down the stairs

nick: a few times i went anyway though

nick: hehe

ashley: I felt awful.. I didn't know what was going on... if i would have known what was wrong, I would have like backed off... lol

nick: no, it's okay

nick: i mean, i like disappeared..

nick: first my car got sick..

nick: then i did

nick: hehe

ashley: lol

nick: my computer died too

nick: but that was insignificant

ashley: I had my mom screaming at me to leave you alone! lol

nick: well she was looking out for your best interest...

nick: probably thought i was being a bastard and ignoring you

nick: make sure you tell your family i wasn't well...i don't want them not to like me!

ashley: I told my parents that you were sick and all of that.. and my mom was like 'I like him a lot.. I just hope he talks to you soon'

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nick: and if i can get the hell out of this house

nick: even if just for a day

nick: would be a miracle

ashley: lol.. is it really that bad? lol

nick: well...

nick: i've been here, in my room and only left a handful of times in weeks...

nick: so yeah

nick: it's that bad

nick: hehe

ashley: lol.. I can imagine.. lol

ashley: at least you didn't have to brave the snow and ice last week.. lol.. I nearly fell and broke something too many times to count! lol

nick: yeah i didn't see much of that

nick: you and your falling!

nick: need to learn to walk

nick: hehe

ashley: lol

ashley: when I get really nervous about ice being on the sidewalks, my legs lock up, and that's how I fall... lol

nick: well if we go out when i visit

nick: i'll hold on to you so you don't!

ashley: lol. that would make me feel secue! lol

ashley: *secure

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ashley: I just told lauren what you said and she freaked! ha ha ha

nick: hehe

ashley: i'm such a dork.. lol

nick: well i think you're a cute dork

nick: hehe

ashley: lol

ashley: well, you have competition, because I got hit on by an old man last night..lol

ashley: I mean, like Grandpa old.. lol

Nick: damn

Nick: he he he

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well guys, there you go! Love you all!

Ashley

love || forever