Hey everyone!

How are you all doing? Good I hope... I'm okay.. I just woke up and I'm still really tired! lol... and last night was a ball, but more on that later!

So I just got an e-mail from Nick, and I don't know if i should be happy or sad about it... here it is:

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Ashley!

Sorry I took so long to write, but I have been so busy. I feel 100% better, but my Mom hasn't let me return to school. I have been scrambling to get all of my end-of-semester papers done. My parents have been talking about me taking the winter semester at home. We will talk about it when I see you next. It seems like it might be the right decision. Except when I think about you. I really want to be able to spend time with you, the time we spent together where it was nearly every day. I miss that alot. I miss you alot. I want to come visit you, even though I am done for the semester. My Dad brought all of my stuff home today, so tomorrow I should be on the computer at some point. You need to let me know when would be a good time for me to come visit. My schedule is pretty clear, so if you tell me when is good for you, I will escape and drive down.

Hope to see you soon!

Love,

Nick

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I don't know what to do... I really don't want him to go back up there for the semester, because I won't see him then.. only on the weekends, and I don't know if I could be in a relationship like that.. but then my heart tells me that it will work, because we care so much about each other... and that if I want to have this work, I'm going to need to sacrifice a lot of things too... if I want thim to be happy with his career choice, I need to sacrifice my feelings and be behind him 110%, because I care so much about him...

Enough of my sob story.. lol. Last night was the annual Liberty High School choral concert. It was the first time that I haven't been involved with it through choir... and it was scary to sit in the audience... after spending 4 years in choir, it seemed wrong for me not to be in uniform, belting out songs for the audience! lol.. so anyways, Lauren's Dad dropped Duma, Lauren and myself off earlier, so me and Lauren were dragged into going to see Shu.. who I was terrified of seeing, since the concerts make her into an uber-bitch! lol.. so that flooded back memories! lol...

We sat down early, and all of a sudden, this old man came towards me and said "Are you saving these?" and I was like 'Oh, no. you can sit down here.." and he started flirting with me!! He's like "thanks for saving these seats for your Grandpa!" HAHAHA! and he was like 'I love to sit by you pretty girls!" I was freaking out! Lol.. I was clostrophobic being surrounded with all of those people! ha ha ha.. Never again.. next time we are sitting by the aisle!! HAHAHA!

Well, I'm gonna go. I have 5 books to read in the next 2 weeks, so I should get started!

Love you all!

Ashley

love || forever