Hey everyone...

I just need to get a few things off of my chest, so bare with me everyone, okay?

1.) i kinda told one of my friends last night that I never wanted to talk to them again, because of something, and now I do regret saying that, but I am just hurt and I'm angry and I'm bitter...and I said some things via Lauren to this person that was wrong, but you know what? Once someone shatters my trust in them like this person did, I have nothing to say to them again, and this is hard, since this person is my great friends, but I just can't go back and forth with this, because in the back of my mind, I'm not going to be able to trust them.. I'm going to be saying to myself "I wonder who he'll/she'll tell this one to..." and this will ALWAYS happen.. because i've had to end friendships over things like this... but people who I've consulted on this matter have all told me that I'm doing the right thing, and this person will eventually get over it, so I hope so.... so that's what I'm thinking subconsiously.. lol.. anyways, does anyone know where I can buy mistletoe? I want to get some so when Nick comes over, I can.. you know..have fun with that.. lol! I'm sure they sell it at Giant or someplace like that. I'm just going to have to search around for that.. lol. So I went shopping with Lauren after my class on Wednesday... and was that fun or what? lol. It was Lauren's Momma, Lauren, Duma and me, and seriously, I've never laughed so much and so hard in the past couple months.. anyways, we were walking around looking at guys clothes, since I was searching for something to get for Nick, and they had this pair of boxers that said "Nice Package" on the crotch! ha ha ha.. I thought that I was funny! Me and Lauren were laughing so hard! lol.. But I have decided to bake cookies for Nick with the assistance of Lauren... that is going to be so cute.. lol. I'm going to make little gingerbread men and women that look like me and him and put them in a little bix and decorate it.. so opefully I don't burn the cookies, right Lauren? lol. That or I hope I don't give him food poisoning.. that would make me feel like shit! lol. Well, I have to go get in the shower, since I go to class soon! Love Always, Ashley P.S. I really don't want the people involved in the problem above to hate me.. and if they do, I'm sorry, but I think that's the only logical solution.. leave a message for me in the guestbook!

love || forever